Devil in Disguise

The door creaks
It was you, again
Creeping silently in the darkness
Hunting for the flesh
Of the pristine soul
A silhouette
That made a soul, quiver in fear
Crashing to the ground
In misery and agony
What a sham
Concealing the misdeed
With a mask of a saint
If only people knew
What kind of a devil you are

a.s

mid-semester break??

It's finally mid-semester break! As much as I want to use this mid-semester break to pamper myself, I have like tons of assignments that I need to finish before this break ends. 😪 

I have to admit that degree life isn't that easy. Compared to when I was in my diploma years, this is way more challenging. Gosh, I barely have time to breathe. Back then, I legit can count how many times I stayed up to finish my work, I can count how many times I had gone to the library, I mean I was free most of the time. I can even binge-watching on the vampire diaries from season one until the last season of the show but now, I can't even watch a single episode of any tv-shows 😭

New place, new environment, new friends((nope not gonna forget the old ones, still love you guys xx)), new goals. 

This time, for my degree years, I really want to get involved in everything, be it the curricular activities or the vice versa, I wanna be in everything. I wanna get out of my comfort zone. I don't wanna be the old me, the one who really loves to laze around, wasting my time doing nothing and end up being a dummy. I wanna be more than that. I wanna challenge myself to be the best version of me. That's why I'm trying my best to be more productive and I want to put my self in one of those people receiving the dean's list award, and be a better person inside and out insyaAllah.

But I have to admit, to change the old habit of mine is hard. Old habits die hard, remember?

I tend to forget my true intentions, my goals, and it really stressed me out. To think that there's a day where I still have the time to procrastinate, it drives me crazy. And to think that all of my classmates, who are super intelligent and talented people, makes me feel like I don't belong there. sigh. I really need some motivations to keep me going. Let's hope that I can fulfill my goals and make it till the end of my degree years. 😪

Anyway, I'm on my day one of my social media hiatus. Let's see how long can i survive without any social media(s). I feel like I spent like hours on my phone scrolling through all the social media apps that I have on my phone, I think this is the right time to take a break. Plus, I'm not in a good state to be on socmed right now. For the sake of my mental health, and for my inner peace, I'm taking a break for awhile. I'll only be back on those apps after I feel like I'm better. 

yeap that's it, gonna do my work now,

wish me luck xx